; = ' (check the time).

it;s raining. it;s 4:56 AM. (check the time).
if i can pull this off, i;ll feel ok.
& possibly, quite possibly, maybe even sleep.
there;s a sweet disposition in turning it off...or at least trying.
i crack.
my whole life i;ve been hard & brave & callus to the whole slant of it.
the wane & creak of tired tries,
or the bend & snap of convenient cries.
there was a time before you & a time with you.
there will never be a time after you.
just the rest of my life.
i;m sick now.
erased. altered. edited. re-written.
non the less, a fiction that no creative mind could craft.
just a scratch.
a scrawl on the notebook of some tired gentleman;s night time diatribe.
yes.
ink & paper.
thought & verb.
the means in which i spend the rest of my life.
thoughtlessly pounding out the cheap, cheap versions of myself that i dreamed of as a kid.
grimy & sticky & full of all the blind ambitions the t.v. sold to me.
it;s false.
it;s wrong.
we are wrong.

i forgot to mention what i;ve seen.
(only to be assumed by the fact that i could speak on this, speak like this.)
it all.
that is what i;ve seen.
IT ALL. 

beyond the eyes of doubt
& beyond the eyes of fear
& beyond the waves of hurt
& beyond the countless beers.

beer.
where is that cold one?
oh yes. it;s raining & it;s 5:19 AM. (check the time).